71 Days

Dear Luke-
I just counted and you are 71 days old now--I can hardly believe it. I have been meaning to write this letter to you since you were born, but you have had other plans for me that do not include free time! Of course when I do have free time, there are plenty of other things I'd rather be doing, like watching you suck on your fingers or stare at your feet, which you recently discovered and find completely fascinating. I could spend every day watching you watch the world around you. You have changed my life so fully and completely I can't remember the way things were before you and I don't even want to try. It feels like you've been here the whole time. Your Daddy and I love you more than we ever could have imagined and we are still in awe that we brought you into the world. Did we really create this beautiful and amazing little person? It baffles us.

Since you came into our lives we watch you like you are our new tv. The funny expressions you make, every little gurgle or coo, we can't imagine anything more cute or perfect and could just stare at you for days. I find myself doing things for you that I never imagined doing for another human being before. I have never before kept a poop journal, never placed my hand on someone's chest in the middle of the night to make sure they were still breathing, and certainly never wiped someone else's bottom for them...oh how that has changed! But then you have this way of looking up at me with your big blue eyes, laying your perfect little head on my shoulder, or reaching out to gently grasp one of my fingers, and in those moments I realize I would do anything in the world for you, my little angel.

Every morning I wake up and realize I have fallen in love with you just a little bit more, and it is the best feeling in the world. My love for you is so great that even when you wake me up at 5am I feel like I could stay up all day long, with no coffee, and that is saying a lot. I can't wait to start every day with you, to see what new cool thing you are going to learn that day. On Sunday you rolled all the way over from your back to your belly by yourself and I thought I would just burst with pride for how strong and smart you are. Just wait until you can roll back the other way, I swear I won't know what do with myself!

I can't wait to show you the world little one. You are so eager to take it all in. And the world better watch out, because baby, you are so awesome the world won't know what hit it.

All my love,

PS. I still can't believe that I am someone's Mama.

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Cyndi said...

Perfectly said, Heather. Perfectly said.

KA said...

What a touching letter! Luke, you are so lucky to have such a kind and funny Mom!

Tonya & Michael said...

Heather -
You are an awesome, awesome Momma! That is one of the sweetest things I've ever read & I'm bawling like a baby because you know I'm all a big bag of emotions and goo right now! I'm so proud of you and Jay and Mr. Luke is a very lucky little boy. I can't wait for him to meet this new little girl of ours!
Love and miss you, sista!